The following December,1998, my computer broke down and despite
valiant attempts by friends and a despairing helpline, it defied
resuscitation. I mentioned this to John Quigley when he
dropped round in February for it was still flat-lining. 'They want you to write' was his enigmatic
conclusion. 'Write what? I don't have anything to write about!' 'Just sit down quietly each day with a pen and paper and ask for guidance.'
So I did, sitting in meditation for
half an hour each afternoon then writing down the thoughts
streaming through my head. Sometimes the thoughts stopped in mid-sentence, my mind left
in suspension for minutes on end. At other times the whole thing seemed
so completely ridiculous, especially the material at the start of the practice writings and particularly when equations came through, that a few sessions ended up
straight in the bin.
Any obvious mistakes
are my own for as the best of secretaries will confirm, there are always
difficulties with dictation and there were also times when I was not as
deeply relaxed as necessary and conscious thoughts intruded. When
you're working like this you just have to go with the flow and at times
the energy will dip and you just write down stuff in your conscious mind
or start making things up.
Nonetheless you have to continue and write
down everything without filtering it otherwise the flow will stop
altogether. You will
therefore come across weeds of nonsense and inconsistency such as
references to the war in Yugoslavia. In order to demonstrate the honesty of the process they've been left in.
Dates and compass bearings were tricky. For example the
original compass bearings were found to be 180 degrees out of kilter
with the 'real' ones eg. for north read south, which could be to do with the reflection of the material and spiritual planes. Some have been corrected,
some have not - I got distracted and lost track, so the only way to
know for sure would be to examine the original writings.
were wrong (apart from the previously mentioned September 2001 reference) because I specifically forced them, wanting to know exactly when the events were going to materialise. They have been left out
here as they detract from appreciating the other information but they do appear in the original
book if you want to track a copy down. The historical ones have been left
in but whether they are right or wrong only time will tell - they were
clearer in my mind than the future ones.
Regarding the seventy so-called 'Books'
listed in the index, often the knowledge contained in an entire 'Book' is condensed into just a
sentence or two and they are scattered throughout the writings in a
different order to the one given in the index but it has been possible to marry them up with the
contents of the text. To help you out each 'Book' has been linked to the section of
the text that seems to contain the relevant content. Some content relates to 'The Crystal Keys', a series of recorded trance sessions, transcripts of which are also available on this site. Other bits are
unfathomable such as 'The Freemason's Art' whilst others are simply
missing eg. 'Essences and Remedies' and 'Floral Classification'. I think they're in that bin.
Finally the diagrams are not of a professional standard because they were
just scribbles for my own use with no thought of publication. They are
presented in their original state as true copies of the original
writings that survived the cull are written as dated. I started checking what facts I could given that the internet was in its infancy and to my shock, they were true. Realising the predictory nature of some of the content and perhaps a future need to provide proof of foreknowledge, a sealed copy of the transcripts was deposited with a solicitor in September
1999 and I set about compiling a book, 'Phoenix Return' , which was published in June 2000, copies of which were contemporaneously submitted to the Legal Deposit Libraries as required by UK law.